Spirited Essence Works

Time seems to pass me by faster than I wish it would. I feel like all I do is blink and a month has rushed by. My youngest just turned 9 months recently and it got me thinking. It’s been pretty hectic in our household lately due to trying to find a home. Apartment life for our “six pack” just doesn’t work for us. So most of our free time has been taken up due to that. I, myself, can be a bit of a worrier. Well that may be an understatement… I always worry that I never give enough of myself and I always expect more out of myself when it comes to my expectations of being a good mom. I worry about my children constantly from not having enough story time daily to them not eating enough greens in one day. Then add on top of that, the idea of time passing by too quick and my children growing up faster that I wish. I feel like a hot mess mom most days.

I thought about the time I have spent worrying and constantly judging myself. I thought about how I need to not only give time to my kids but also time to myself. Sadly, I can’t remember the last time I touched up my roots or plucked my eyebrows. Between chores, work, packing, and weekly errands, I find myself short on extra time. I don’t like to give up time from my children, but if I don’t take time for myself occasionally how am I supposed to be able to give more of myself for my family. 

I, not only, need to give time for myself but stop worrying about the time I have missed with my children and enjoy the time and moments I have now. Dwelling in the past doesn’t do anyone any good. Being a worrier, I have a tendency to focus on what I haven’t done rather than what can I do. My children are happy and I need to enjoy that as well as to continue to strive for their continual happiness. I gain more from enjoying the present and soaking up my children playing and laughing. 

And last, but certain not least, I need to reflect and pray more. Through all this worrying and stress, God is beside me and already knows the path ahead. Life is stressful and overwhelming at times. There are some days where I wonder how much more can go wrong. But, God doesn’t give you more than you can handle. I am only stronger as a person everyday for enduring through the rough times. I need to be more thankful of what He is doing for me and my family, and giving us daily. I began a Daily Prayer Circle that meets in the morning at work. Those five minutes a day during the week, helps me focus and start my day out joyous. My daily prayer and reflection has truly helped me think about my life and which direction I want it to go in.

The old saying of “Stop! And smell the roses!” keeps playing through my meditations. It is easier said than done, but once I actually started living this advice, I began appreciating and enjoying my life and my family more.